I’m like bigger than Car
like my hands are bigger
we we snuggle I’m bigger
when I lay on him I feel like I’m crushing him…
ugh. he’s taller than me. that’s something right?
he told me he usually dates smaller girls… doesn’t that make me feel nice. ugh. I wish I was smaller, skinnier, shorter. ugh.
Car kept me up late last night and we didn’t even get to talk on the phone. I miss him. but i saw him Sunday. ugh. I wish he went to my school… I really like him.. what if he’s losing interest? what If he likes somebody else? /.\ jeez I think too much.
a is sick today. yippieeeeee. I cannot focus on chemistry with her annoying fucking giggle.
jay cub is pretty cool. we’ve been going on walks. he’s really chill and down to earth we can talk about anything, it’s great.
I didn’t tell car how he tried to kiss me… i don’t know how, should I tell him? it wasn’t even anything. I pushed him away and he laughed it off as if it was a joke. it probably didn’t mean anything.
I’d choose car or jay any day. car makes me so unbelievably happy. I can’t believe how happy he makes me. agh Its just amazing. I’m like 2 weeks clean, in a better mood, willing to get out of bed. it’s fantastic. I hope I make him happy. oh god… I really don’t want to lose him.
car talked to me about like a future. like dating him while he’s in college and like maybe even longer than that… omg, I might have a future.. that’s exciting.. I love him.
I kinda feel like right now all we’re doing is cuddling, watching movies, and making out. never really talking… we’ll have to change that I guess.
at the moment we’re not even texting… I hope he doesn’t break up with me.. bleh >.<
I have a vball game today… I hope we win. i have bruises all over the place. we better win.
all my friends are in band right now… ughhhhhh I’m so bored